[00:00:00] Hey guys, welcome to my channel.
[00:00:02] In today's episode, I will be sharing with you my personal reflections navigating this world of
[00:00:06] interviews, spirituality and self-discovery from moments of self-doubt during the interviews
[00:00:12] to the information overload that happens with speaking to people with psychic gifts,
[00:00:16] the highs and the lows so far. So whether you're a fellow podcaster, a spiritual seeker or someone
[00:00:22] who's just curious about my story, there's something for everybody right here. So without
[00:00:25] any further ado, let's dive right in.
[00:00:31] So I'm in my daughter's room right here. This is where she spends her time and also looks like a
[00:00:36] nice cool background to sit and talk to you guys. So this journey so far has been crazy. It started
[00:00:42] in Feb when I just got this overwhelming feeling where I had to start a podcast. I've always
[00:00:48] wanted to do a podcast but then halfway through I decided that this is enough. I'm just happy
[00:00:52] with my lifestyle vlogging thing on Instagram. But for some reason in Feb it started there.
[00:00:56] I need to start a podcast. I started my podcast on the 4th of April 2024. So it was like 448
[00:01:04] because that's the number 4444 right? So I took this synchronicity into picture and I did this
[00:01:10] and I started it on that particular day. And since then the journey has been so up and down
[00:01:16] and I feel like the whole podcasting thing is like this spiritual growth curriculum that I'm on
[00:01:23] customized to myself. And I know that in the process you guys would also be feeling the same
[00:01:29] thing if you've been following the episodes from one to until now and I think this is like the
[00:01:33] 12th interview that I did and I never even knew that I would be able to do even two because
[00:01:38] I didn't think anyone would say yes to my podcast to be honest with you. But we are on the
[00:01:41] 12th episode and it's a big milestone for me. Number one doubts during interviews. Now during
[00:01:48] the interviews a lot of the times I keep doubting them when they are channeling or saying something
[00:01:53] which is are they actually telling the truth or are they lying? And this thought often chokes
[00:01:58] me up because I feel like I am highly responsible for the kind of people that I bring
[00:02:03] onto my platform because I'm responsible for the information that I'm giving to you guys.
[00:02:08] And if I make a mistake, if I'm bringing someone wrong onto the podcast then I feel like it's a
[00:02:12] big sin. It's a crime and I have been so hard on myself where I have been trying to improve my
[00:02:18] intuition. I've been trying to eat vegetarian. I've been trying to meditate a lot. Do those
[00:02:22] things so that I will be able to understand if the energy is not right so that I can put
[00:02:26] in the right kind of information the truth in front of you instead of just anybody on the
[00:02:30] podcast. But in the process it started becoming so stressful for me that now I have
[00:02:35] realized that it's not going to be possible for me to only bring the truth in front of you because
[00:02:40] I don't know what the truth is. I am still trying to find out what the truth is so I've decided that
[00:02:46] I'm going to look at it from a reporter perspective the same way Dolores Cannon does
[00:02:50] when she's doing passive regressions on her clients right. She's just reporting what is coming
[00:02:54] up but if it's right or wrong, if it's truth or false that is your responsibility.
[00:03:00] Each and every one of you watching the podcast episodes listening to the guests
[00:03:04] you do not have to take everything as it being truth. Maybe a guest would come in where partially
[00:03:09] they do say what is right and maybe they would be bits of it which may not resonate with your
[00:03:14] truth and that is okay. You do not have to believe everything. You just have to take in
[00:03:19] that which resonates with your truth and then discard the rest. The second thing that has
[00:03:23] happened is me getting overwhelmed by psychic information. Now I was someone who used to
[00:03:27] just listen to one meditation called the morning meditation by Joe Dispenser. Then I would
[00:03:32] do my journaling. Then I would do my normal workout, eat my meals. That's it. I don't get a lot of
[00:03:36] information and even if I ask a doubt to universe or to God saying did actually Mother Mary have
[00:03:42] a virgin birth what happens is in the course of the next one week two weeks or a couple of months
[00:03:47] the answers then comes to me. I would start getting resources pop up in front of me and that's
[00:03:52] how I learned but once I started getting more connections with the psyche people with psychic
[00:03:56] gifts I started asking them like the moment a question pops up I would send them a DM asking
[00:04:00] hey did Mother Mary have a virgin birth and then they would send the answer to me. So it's like
[00:04:05] the information overload started getting too much for me and then I also started giving my power away
[00:04:12] to them instead of me asking myself should I send this email should I speak to this person should
[00:04:17] I bring this person on the podcast as a guest. I would just message them hey should I bring
[00:04:22] them should I not and then I would ask them what's going to happen with my future am I
[00:04:26] going to get married and then they would give me overload information they'd be like no you're
[00:04:30] actually gonna die it's so and so age or this is what's gonna happen these are all the bad things
[00:04:34] that's gonna happen. So it started putting me in so much distress I started feeling like I
[00:04:41] started treating the people with psychic gifts as God I started trying to please them
[00:04:48] trying to make sure that they are okay if they say something and it doesn't resonate with my
[00:04:53] truth I get so scared I'm like oh my god they're gonna tap into me and understand that I don't
[00:04:59] trust them they're gonna tap into me and understand that it's lost or they will stop talking to me and
[00:05:04] then I won't know what's gonna happen and then if like the world comes to an end I'm probably
[00:05:08] going to be the only person and I won't even have access to the information. So I started giving
[00:05:11] my power away and I realized that this is not cool this is the exact opposite of what this
[00:05:16] podcast is trying to do what I'm trying to do is give the power back to you instead of
[00:05:21] depending on the banks to take care of your money your doctors to take care of your health your
[00:05:25] priests to tell you how to pray you have everything within you to take care of yourself you do not have
[00:05:30] to depend on any single person so even if people with psychic gifts channelers things like that
[00:05:35] come on the podcast you do not have to give your power away to them this is disinformation
[00:05:39] that will expand your consciousness so that you will realize that all that these people
[00:05:44] do the gifts and the abilities they have are within yourself as well. The third thing that
[00:05:49] started happening is me getting struggling with reality the moment I started dealing with oh
[00:05:56] there's going to be a new earth there's going to be this beautiful earth where there's going to be
[00:06:00] different kinds of fruits and the work is going to be different the money exchange is going to
[00:06:05] be different people are going to be different. I started looking down on my current reality
[00:06:10] I'm like oh these people don't understand what I'm talking about I hate my job I need to quit
[00:06:16] my job so that I can quickly get into new earth I need to stop eating non veg and just eat vegan
[00:06:21] dishes so that or I need to pay so-and-so persons so that they can open my third eye immediately and I
[00:06:26] can see what they are seeing like I started getting really impatient can you imagine Buddha
[00:06:32] paying somebody to for enlightenment that's the exact opposite of enlightenment what happened
[00:06:36] was I came across this video of this guy named Vishranth who was the disciple of Osho
[00:06:43] he's still alive right Vishranth is alive and he I watched a video of him talking about enlightenment
[00:06:48] and that's the first time I understood what enlightenment is he said that in line witness
[00:06:52] when you realize that all of these things that you know which is who am I I am Tania
[00:06:56] I have a name I'm a Christian I'm a supply chain analyst I'm a single mother the moment you
[00:07:01] realize that none of these attributes actually define who you are that's when you get enlightened
[00:07:06] so how can I do that you know what I was praying for I was praying for ego death God
[00:07:11] just give me an ego death so because I wanted to fast track my enlightenment journey can you imagine
[00:07:16] what stupidity that is if I want to fast track it you know what's going to happen the first thing
[00:07:20] they could take my daughter away something and happen my daughter could go away so now
[00:07:24] me defining myself as a single mother will not be a title anymore right let's say I lose my
[00:07:29] job I'm not a supply chain analyst anymore let's say all of my accounts social media
[00:07:33] accounts get hacked then I'm not content creator or a podcaster anymore this is
[00:07:37] what ego death means you really want to do that so what would be a better way a better way would
[00:07:42] be to live your human life experience in a spiritual manner where every single thing just me sitting
[00:07:48] here and doing this recording itself I tap in to understand am I saying the right thing God is
[00:07:53] this good so it's about you co-creating your experience with God instead of God creating
[00:07:59] something else and you trying to think that you can create something else so that's an
[00:08:02] integration that I understood was happening in the process the fourth thing defending my guest
[00:08:08] I felt compelled to defend every single person that comes on my podcast so let's say I bring
[00:08:14] a guest on my show and I show this video to my family or my friends if they show a slight
[00:08:20] change in their expression where they feel like they are not believing it I would immediately
[00:08:24] feel attacked and I would immediately try to convince them then no this is what it is it's
[00:08:29] you are not thinking like that whatever you're thinking is wrong you know I start getting
[00:08:33] I get defensive about it and then I realize that I don't even have to do that I mean all
[00:08:37] the guests who are coming on my podcast are people that I adore that I love that I love
[00:08:41] speaking to but whatever they say and the kind of I'm learning to detach myself from them
[00:08:48] they are individuals I am an individual all the people who watch the podcast as well are
[00:08:52] individuals different people with different soul journey it is not my responsibility to convince
[00:08:58] anybody you will get information that is required for your soul growth at the right time at the right
[00:09:03] space everything would be aligned and perfect for you I personally do not have to convince you to
[00:09:08] watch a certain guest there are so many guests that I'm bringing but if you end up choosing to
[00:09:12] watch a particular video it's probably because there's a message for you customized to you
[00:09:18] in that video and that's it the fifth thing that started happening is where I started
[00:09:22] getting to enjoy this process of podcasting I got this sudden mission where I'm like I have
[00:09:29] to awaken the planet I need to convince people I need to expand the consciousness of people it
[00:09:33] felt like this is my responsibility to do that again I mean can you imagine me trying to take
[00:09:38] up this whole burden on myself and if someone doesn't get convinced by what I'm trying to
[00:09:43] say then I get sad for them I feel like oh my god they are going to die in the old they're
[00:09:50] going to suffer they're going to struggle Jesus please help them I mean like seriously
[00:09:56] am I special would God love them more than I love them so the same exact way where I'm getting
[00:10:03] these intuition or these signs symbols these different things synchronicities happening in
[00:10:09] my life that is God working on us that is Jesus or your spirit guide working on you to awaken
[00:10:15] you do not have to think that you're extra special where you have to go and awaken someone else right
[00:10:20] the same way God is working on you God is also working on your partner or your friend or whoever
[00:10:25] it is that is of concern to you and they are also on a soul growth or a spiritual journey
[00:10:30] themselves it's not your responsibility to wake them up or put them on the right path they are
[00:10:34] being cared for protected and taken ultimate care for because all of our father is God so there's
[00:10:42] nothing that you have to get stressed out about trying to tell people or convince people about
[00:10:47] anything especially when it comes to the things that you grew up learning all your life in your
[00:10:52] religious texts right in the bible there are so many things which I realized is false information
[00:10:57] and when someone else who is very religious comes in front of me I get so like do you know what
[00:11:03] this is what's happening even if they do not want to have the discussion with me I would
[00:11:07] force them to listen to me and then our relationship breaks down in the process that's
[00:11:11] not the job our responsibility or rather I realize that my responsibility is to do the work and then
[00:11:18] let my energy get people curious so if things go wrong and everything happens there's a certain
[00:11:25] energy that I would emit because of the work that I've done on myself and when that energy
[00:11:30] resonates outside that's when people would get attracted to it and they would want that same
[00:11:35] energy but you are someone who's religious or on the spiritual path and then you're getting so
[00:11:39] angry and so mad at people because they are not thinking the same way that you're thinking
[00:11:42] you've completely lost the plot so that is something else that I've realized through
[00:11:47] too in the past few months the best thing that's happened to me ever since the Sattra
[00:11:53] podcast thing is I get to ask questions I'm very shy about asking questions when I
[00:11:59] meet people and realize so I have always gone to these events where I see these great speakers
[00:12:04] and I'm like oh my god they're so amazing but then I wouldn't never approach them and
[00:12:07] ask them questions but the fact that I get to send them an invite and they come on my podcast
[00:12:11] and I get to ask as many questions as I want 100,000 different questions that I want and they
[00:12:17] get to answer it and we have a discussion that's been like the most fulfilling part of this
[00:12:23] whole podcasting journey it started off with me wanting to awaken the planet and like like
[00:12:28] this sort of serious mission that I'm on but it just ended up being something where I get
[00:12:34] excited about speaking to different guests every single weekend so today for example I was
[00:12:39] speaking to Christie Drake yesterday I was speaking to Malcolm Nyer and Christie Drake today came and
[00:12:44] spoke about how Adam and Eve were two people who were sent on a mission to procreate on planet
[00:12:49] earth by God but they failed their mission because of a technology that was concealed in
[00:12:55] something pure but it wasn't this is new information it gives me joy to know these
[00:13:01] kind of things it's like it's like new stories right even if you don't believe in any of these
[00:13:05] things you don't have to believe in any of these things but it's just fascinating to hear these things
[00:13:09] right so it's it's beautiful so these are amazing questions and amazing answers that you get
[00:13:16] which would help you on your path as well and that's the best part about podcasting especially
[00:13:21] for someone like me who is a complete introvert I get to ask questions I get to speak to people
[00:13:26] it feels like me going on a date every single weekend and it fulfills my soul my spirit it's
[00:13:33] that's been the most fulfilling part and I hope you guys get to feel and experience the same
[00:13:37] excitement that I feel when I'm speaking to these guests as well I'm listening to Dorores
[00:13:46] Cannon's book called Jesus and the Essenes I just finished the convoluted universe and it was
[00:13:50] fascinating and apparently Jesus was in a scene or not exactly in a scene but Jesus
[00:13:55] spent some of his years in kumran with the Essenes where he was learning about these
[00:14:01] laws of the universe law of manifestation law of polarity law of duality all of these things
[00:14:06] and I'm also listening I'm also reading the book called a course in miracles where it's like I didn't
[00:14:11] even know what the course meant how can someone teach miracles right I ordered it because Betty
[00:14:16] Godanio from my first episode my second episode said that that's a book so I started reading it
[00:14:20] and that book has been like it fills my soul you know it answers every single question in my
[00:14:27] soul and apparently that's a book that was channeled and it is Yeshua speaking in the book
[00:14:32] and he's talking about what our mind is and what our ego is what our Holy Spirit is and that
[00:14:37] book has been so fascinating why are you just a question well is my cable because you removed
[00:14:43] any kept it somewhere where's my cable so that was my sister what is the arc of the covenant
[00:14:51] how long did it take Noah to build the ark there's a story on the tower of Babel and that because
[00:14:58] of people's pride he brought languages and I think it means that at one point in time all of us had
[00:15:02] telepathy and all of us were able to hear each other but we were all trying to use that gift
[00:15:07] to do something terrible and that is when probably God took away telepathy and we had
[00:15:14] to start using our mouth to speak to each other I think that's what it means but I do
[00:15:17] not know and I want to find out why then there's a question about why God killed those Egyptian
[00:15:22] firstborns that wouldn't happen there must be something else to it all right and that's about
[00:15:27] Bible stuff then I've got when did we even start eating animals why did this happen who is a prophet
[00:15:34] or all of these people who are channeling prophets why did prophet Muhammad say that he
[00:15:38] is the last prophet to have come what does that even mean why who's supposed to split
[00:15:42] the bills this is like my number one question I still don't know if you're supposed to
[00:15:45] split the bill or not right because right now it seems like everybody is on a empowerment journey
[00:15:51] and we are supposed to be doing things on our own and just focus on ourselves so who's supposed
[00:15:56] to split the bill I still do not know the answer to that thank you so much for joining me on this
[00:16:05] episode of my podcasting journey I hope my insights or experience is resonated with you
[00:16:10] or probably spark some thoughts of your own do not forget to subscribe to my channel and also
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